Day: August 21, 2015
Time to rest
This morning we ran into town to meet with Dr Liljenquist, Jan’s primary doctor. He reviewed all the info we have gathered over the last few days and spoke about what options Jan has. We discussed meds and what the plan would be if Jan had treatment as well as if he did not. We spoke about how if he chooses no treatment, we’d start hospice immediately. So many things to consider, and such a huge decision to make…
Jan was supposed to have the PET scan this afternoon and have the preliminary work done in preparation for radiation, but decided that he’d like the weekend to think things through. It has been the longest week of our lives, and it’s not even over yet! It’s time to rest and take a deep breath and listen for insight and understanding.
As we drove home I looked out at the golden fields of freshly harvested wheat and barley and felt a peace fill me, and I knew that no matter what the next few weeks bring, everything is going to be ok. There is beauty and learning everywhere, and all those lessons I learn now through this heartbreaking journey with Jan, I will be able to use to help others. In the end our love and appreciation for each other will have grown, and our eternal bonds will be stronger still. I am so grateful.